Feeling: A mix of things; Happy overall, for sure, and Loved. A tiny bit Bored, since I have not been sewing much and working out less this year so far. I need to flip the switch and get back to work in both areas. Why is that motivation so hard to find? I am in need of a some serious motivation and inspiration. I hoping getting back to blogging here will spark my creativity once again. I need the outlet.
Watching: Homeland. It is so good and intense and just awesome. The characters are great. I only have 3 episodes left in Season 2 and then I have to wait until he dead end of September for Season 3!!! What is that all about?
Reading: Let’s be honest here, Buzzfeed. And a few blogs, including Enjoying the Small Things. kellehampton.com I love Kelle’s writing. And it does not always matter what she is writing about specifically. She can write things that I can adapt to completely different situations in my own life. That’s what’s so great about the best song lyrics, right? She writes things like this: “Sometimes you don’t know you want these things until fate picks them for you. And then you’re thankful that you don’t get to make all your own choices because that would be kind of selfish and boring, and you’d never get to experience your secret wants–the ones only fate knows.” that make me cry at my computer. Not just because I’m reading a birth story. But because I have my own little realization, and see how true and lovely the statement is. I am not sure why I haven’t read her book, Bloom, yet…
Thinking about: Work. And what I could be doing better to push myself further. It’s a great time here to grow along with the company. When I first started, I was really excited about my position and what I felt I could do with it, and where I could go. I still am. But, I have noticed myself closing up and almost distancing myself socially at work (and in my life in general, actually). I get nervous when talking. I haven’t always been the most outgoing person, but I find myself becoming even more socially awkward lately, like heart pounding and shaky even at times. It’s a bit concerning. It’s something I really need to address with myself and work on.
Eating: Drinking Lattes at work, thanks to our somewhat new Nespresso machine. I love this thing, seriously.
Looking forward to: Sunshine, and more frequent trips to the beach. I cannot wait for Summer and days outside basking in the sun, sunny bike rides, and pool days. I don’t know if this necessarily falls under the “Looking forward to” section but, I have been craving getting dressed up for something. I have nothing planned yet. But, I just want to put on a dress and some heels. Nothing too fancy. Just fancy enough to get that feeling you get when wearing a great dress and heels. I am also looking forward getting tattooed again. Ready and anxious to get into the shop and start working on my long list of waiting artwork…
Making me happy: Our “Full House”. March a quiet yet crazy month in our house. There has been a lot of traveling for just about everyone in the house, but all at different times. It can be weird to be in that full house when someone is missing. You sense the off-ness of it. I get that our living situation isn’t completely conventional. And maybe it’s more normal home life when I or my sister clear out, or my brother and his family take off. I’ve just gotten so used to our commune lifestyle, that it feels normal to me. And while sometimes I look forward to the quiet, I find that during it I’m just bored and want out. Now, that everyone is back home and no future trips are planned quite yet. Home feels whole again and so damn happy.
I love these “Currently”posts. Thank you, Danielle for the inspiration and invitation to join in the fun!