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Posts Tagged ‘anxiety’

I will tiptoe down that line but I will feel unstable.

Skirt: Old Navy

Leggings: Urban Outfitters

Thermal: Forever 21

Scarf: Forever 21

Belt: Forever 21 (came with another top)

Boots: Target

Big ol’ bag/ duffel/Purse: Forever 21 (L<3VE this thing)

I had my hair done last weekend, but after washing it was too lazy to blow dry and style it. This is the result of air drying and throwing it in a messy bun to keep out of my face while I sew.  It looked SO nice after having it done. I need to get myself in a better routine so I can get all the things I want to, done. Such as blow drying and sometimes even straightening my hair. I feel like I don’t have time for anything, but at that same time don’t feel like I do enough to not have the time for those things. sheesh! I’m a mess.

I need to find balance. I need to figure out how I can be happy working full time every day, and then still find the time to do the creative things I am constantly anxious to work on, when the work day is over. AND do my laundry, prepare a decent meal, spend time with my friends and family, make time for just me, pamper myself, workout. Okay, now I think I’m going to have a panic attack. There is just not enough time for it all. How do you do it all?

Yes, this post title is from the Papa Roach song “Tightrope” it was the hidden track on the album I had. Always really liked that song.

I love good people, and good companies, an ode to The Resume Cafe.

Quite a doozy, a really serious testimonial of sorts.

And now to recognize a really great company, who had a HUGE part in me landing my new job. Seriously, I think they did more work than me. A GIGANTIC Thank You to The Resume Cafe.

When things first started getting rocky at my previous job (i.e. salary getting chopped in HALF) I started working on my resume, yet again. It has always been a daunting task for me. My work experience is somewhat random, as I have tried working in various fields, and I do not have a college degree. It’s always been extremely difficult for me to get what is my mind into words and put on paper. It just doesn’t happen. In my head, my retail, customer service, tech support, project management, human resources, software QA, call center experience translates into this awesome mesh of skills and a professional background that would be great for many positions. When trying to get that on paper, to me, it always just looked RANDOM. Like I just bounced around from place to place, doing whatever I felt like at the time. Which I sort of was, as I was trying to find out what I wanted to do with my life. Nowadays, I have a better idea of what I want to be doing, but, I still want that random experience doing other things to show, as I worked damn hard to gain that experience.

As I began working on my Resume, and STRESSING over it (typical), I considered having it professionally done. I was referred to a website that did them for $300. :( I quickly realized that I was on my own. My salary was just cut in half, and I knew I was very close to being out of a job all together, $300 was not in my budget. So, I continued to work on my Resume myself, and sent a few out. And just like the first time I was unemployed, no bites. Nothing.

Within a short period of time my Mommy blogger Sister-in-Law, directed me over to a blog of a fellow Mommy blogger friend of hers, Law-Momma. Law-Momma was hosting a giveaway on her blog that week to have your Resume professionally written and 2 custom cover letters done for free by The Resume Cafe,  along with a discount code for readers who did not win the giveaway to go to the site and get this same package at a discounted price! the regular rate for this package is $99. Seriously. That’s what I’m talking about! That’s a price someone on a budget can handle a bit better. I was stoked!

I entered the giveaway, and immediately emailed the people at The Resume Cafe to get the ball rolling. Even if I didn’t win the giveaway (Which I didn’t) I was going to use their services anyhow. I immediately started talked to one of the professional writers who immediately began boosting my confidence!!!! I was sent a questionnaire to fill out, and I sent them my own sketchy resume. I was instantly understood. The writer was impressed by my diverse professional background, and made me feel confident that it would all transpire on paper in to a really strong resume. We chatted every so often over Gchat, we were in contact the whole time. At one point, she told me she felt like she really knew me, which was refreshing as she was writing my resume. She had done research regarding the job market in my area even. She was amazingggg! I felt great.

When I got my resume draft, I sat jaw dropped for some time. I couldn’t believe the way she worded my work experience and what I was looking for in a job so perfectly. The top of my resume reads:

“-Exemplary project leader: experiencing success managing both people and financial resources through an organized, detail-focused and strategic management approach
-Over six years of experience in customer service, quality assurance, data analysis and project leadership
-Diverse employee: willing to work in a variety of capacities to ensure deadlines are reached for projects and clients
-Proven ability to adapt skills to a new industry: has successfully managed transitions from retail markets to highly technical information technology environments”

Perfect.

I was ecstatic.

After receieving my completed resume, I recieved a cover letter that I asked for to be written for a specific position I wanted, and one eneric cover letter) both were amazing and on point. I have never been able to write a proper cover letter that was more than a paragragh. My cover letter were always just these cheesey emails introducing my resume. Clearly, I never really knew what I was doing, and needed the help.

I was unemployed from december 2008 – june 2009, I did not have my Resume done at that point, and it was a rough 6 months. I got very few interviews, and felt like I applied for about a million jobs. Looking for work, became my full time job. This time, I had my resume done by The Resume Cafe. I was Laid off from my position on May 14. I applied to less than 15 positions, went on 2 interviews, and one phone interview. I interviewed with my current company on May 21st and again on the 25th, I was called and offered a position the next day May 26th, and Started June 7. I was only out of work for 3 weeks. It could have been less if I had applied more aggressively to more positions. But, part of me was holding out for something good. And, I got it.

I will be eternally grateful to the work The Resume Cafe did for me, for the time they took, and the interest, and care, and amazing communication they kept with me through out it, and to this day. Even though I got a great discounted price, I feel like I got service worth well over $300.

Wow, that ended up being quite long… Didn’t realize I had so much to say!
I’ll be taking a trick of Mandy’s from Harper’s Happenings (hope that’s okay).

Summary: I read more Mom blogs than I probably should. Being unemployed is rough, confidence is important but hard to find it during that time, a good resume is important as it’s the first thing a company sees when they are considering you, professional resumes can be expensive, The Resume Cafe has great deals on great resumes, and delivers amazing results. I LOVE The Resume Cafe for helping me through a really tough time.

Shooot, just saw this and had to share! They are doing a Summer Student Special. $32 for one resume and one cover letter. That’s an amazing price! Anyone just graduate? Get in on this!!!! That’s cheaper than a tank of gas!!!

Job interview attire.

I had a losing battle with my closet tonight while trying to pick out an outfit to wear to a job interview tomorrow. This is the 2nd interview I’ve struggled to outfit myself for since my most recent loss of employment.

It’s making me crazy.

And I assume it can only get worse. I have very little “professional” attire at this stage in my life. At my 3 last jobs, I had a very comfortable dress code, meaning I really had almost no dress code, other than “wear clothes”. On top of the fact that I have gained a, lets say “noticeable” amount of weight in the past year and few months. With that, I have also been out of work a good chunk of time and not had the funds to restock my wardrobe with very many new clothes to fit my newer larger body. So, I’m quite limited. It’s really frustrating. I used to love getting dressed up for a job interview. My Mom bought me a fantastic Ann Klein suit when I got my first office job years ago. It’s a size 8. And I want to cry, because that was my interview outfit when I fit into it, and it was so fun to wear my suit, and I felt so confident wearing it. And tomorrow I have to fake confidence in some tight fitting Gap trousers and a cheap blazer.

Wish me luck.

I’ll be at the gym afterward.

Here I am, again.

A little reflection back to these:

http://www.krustal.com/2008/11/09/lost-it/

http://www.krustal.com/2008/12/08/this-is-it-dont-get-scared-now/

After tomorrow, I will again, be unemployed. It’s much different this time around. I’ve been expecting it, and I will have less money when I leave. So, one sort of positive, one huge negative. Should be interesting, and it can only make me stronger, really. Right? I hope.

I’m scared out of my mind.

I’ve been applying for jobs, and haven’t been hearing back. I thought it’d be so much better this time around. The economy isn’t as horrible as it was last year, and I had my Resume professionally done, and it looks AMAZING! Really, I’m just not patient enough. But, how can I be patient?

I’ve packed up my belongings, and am going to hang out and use the companies internet until I get my check and can pay to have my internet at home turned back on (yeah, I know. Total mess, right?)

I hope to find a job that I am more passionate about. I really wish I didn’t hold out for the job I really wanted, only to not hear A WORD back from them. I should have been more on it. I think, realistically I might need to take a job at the mall or something until I do find what I want. Well, wish me luck.

Lots of work, lack of money, trying this Etsy thing out, oh, and a link to a giveaway…

This week has begun particularly rainy, cloudy and gloomy. Very fitting with my mood. Tax day is Thursday, and I owe. Sat with a tax man to help me sort everything out, only to find out that I didn’t even have the funds to pay him to file for me. Sooooo, I have to go back tomorrow morning, after having to beg for money to borrow until payday, ironically on Thursday. Today has been pretttttttty gloomy for me. I was really planning on not needing to ask ANYONE for money throughout this mess I’m in. (losing a roommate and having to take on paying a 2 person lease on my own, my decision, yes, then realizing I will owe on my taxes, and thennnn my Salary being cut by 50%).  This may all be too too personal. But, sometimes you just need to VENT! after each thing, I kept telling myself  “I’ll figure it all out, it’ll be okay!” Always the optimist, I got hit after hit. I’m officially down on the ground. Hoping to climb back up pretty quickly. I’m sorry, I’m not hoping, I’m doing it.

I have wanted to start an Etsy shop for some time, and what better time to start than now? Exactly.  So, I’ve holed myself up inside my apartment quite a bit, and probably will continue to do so until I have a large amount of product that I am happy with.

I opened the shop today, with the most basic simple items I could whip up just get it started. But, I promise I have some great ideas in store. And every second I get to spend on it, I do (sadly my 50% salary cut does not come with a 50% work load cut, so I am still working full time).  I love getting to do something I love and the hope that it will possibly turn into something profitable, even if it’s very minor. It is still very fun WORK.

So, check it out:

Krust Crafted.

Please keep in mind that it is still very much a work in progress.

Also, I teamed up with Emily again this month for another giveaway. This month, Strawberries! Check it out, and enter to win!


Reviews & Giveaways: Have a BERRY nice day.

And now, off to the gym for my new favorite class to get some of the ickies out.

Trying this Etsy thing out, and a link to a giveaway…

I have wanted to start an Etsy shop for some time, and what better time to start than now? Exactly.  So, I’ve holed myself up inside my apartment quite a bit, and probably will continue to do so until I have a large amount of product that I am happy with.

I opened the shop today, with the most basic simple items I could whip up just get it started. But, I promise I have some great ideas in store. And every second I get to spend on it, I do (sadly my 50% salary cut does not come with a 50% work load cut, so I am still working full time).  I love getting to do something I love and the hope that it will possibly turn into something profitable, even if it’s very minor. It is still very fun WORK.

So, check it out:

Krust Crafted.

Please keep in mind that it is still very much a work in progress.

Also, I teamed up with Emily again this month for another giveaway. This month, Strawberries! Check it out, and enter to win!


Reviews & Giveaways: Have a BERRY nice day.

And now, off to the gym for my new favorite class to get some of the ickies out.

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I could barely enjoy my grilled cheese lunch today thanks to needing 3 anesthesia shots from the dentist this afternoon. :(   I’m currently working on getting my teeth issues taken care of before the end of the year. and it kind of  has my stomach in knots… But, it’s my own fault. Should have taken better care of these things from the start.

I LOVE my dentist! I never thought I’d say that. My previous dentist was a douche bag. See, I get really freaked at the dentist. I don’t like sharp object in my mouth, I HATE the sounds the drills make, and I worry A) the dentist will slip while some sharp object is in my mouth and stab, or B) go crazy and purposely stab me. I know it’s irrational. I don’t know where it came from. Well, my previous dentist would get pissed when I tensed up. No sympathy. My current dentist is an angel for putting up with my nonsense, raising my hand every 5 seconds because I’m nervous that I might  be stabbed with one of their torture devices that’s having a party in my mouth.

TODAY, I went in for a filling, I need 5 :/ please, please, try hard not to judge. Well, when she finished she said surprise! and had done 2! <333

So, I’m brainstorming and would love suggestions and ideas. What is a nice Thank You/Holiday gift I can send to my dentist office? You know, on top of the $$$ I’m paying her…

Side notes: – This week is going by too slow. – I am in LOVE with weather! the sky is BLUE, the sun is shining, and it’s a crispy 60 degrees. I love my scarves and jackets but I love the sun and hate the rain. So, this is my ideal weather.

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I go by Krust. I Love to craft, sew, and create. I started a handbag line in January 2011. I have been loving every second I have gotten to spend in front of my sewing machine or with a sketch pad and colored pencils in hand. On this here blog, I talk about my work, my family and friends, my life, and my love for fashion. I hope you'll stick around.
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